Shia LaBeouf talks about her new role and Catholicism

The actor, who was raised in both Jewish and Christian traditions, spoke with Bishop Robert Barron of Word on Fire Catholic Ministries to talk about how his faith has helped him.

LaBeouf says he began studying Catholicism while preparing his next film, “Padre Pio,” about the saint of the same name.

“It was seeing other people who have sinned beyond anything I could ever conceptualize being also found in Christ that made me think, ‘Oh, this gives me hope,'” did he declare. “I started hearing about the experiences of other depraved people who had found their way – in this area – and it made me feel like I had permission.”

LaBeouf said at one point that he felt suicidal and felt deep shame over the events that had unfolded in his life.

“I had a gun on the table. I was out of here,” LaBeouf said. “I didn’t want to be alive when all this happened. A shame like I’ve never felt before – the kind of shame that you forget how to breathe. You don’t know where to go. You can’t go out and get like, a taco.”

“But I was also in this deep desire to hold on,” he added.

At the time, LaBeouf was going through a period of personal and professional tumult.

While preparing for his new role, LaBeouf lived in a monastery with Capuchin Franciscan friars.

“I know now that God was using my ego to draw me to himself. To pull me away from worldly desires. It was all happening simultaneously. But there would have been no impulse for me to get in my car, drive [to the monastery] if I didn’t think, ‘Oh, I’m going to save my career,'” he said.